I’m horrible at coping. I’m a worrywart over some of the dumbest things. I don’t know if it’s wanting everything to be perfect or everyone to be happy but sometimes it’s no wonder I’ve literally ran myself into the ground.
With everything that has happened over the last month and half, I’ve been in overload. From my body literally forcing me to sleep (I didn’t stand a chance of staying awake on a few of those times) and all of the stress completely knocked out any immunity my already screwed-up body had.
The way I could think of describing it all to a friend was like the boy who cried wolf but my luck made it a real wolf every time. I clearly pissed off the karma gods in some way. Pregnancy loss, infections, chest pains, high blood pressure, ambulances, car battery dies, car battery replaced to find out it’s really the alternator, having to stress over having no vehicle and missing various things. With all of it, I’ve fallen behind on things and while most have been very understanding and told me to stop stressing myself out so much, I’ve had some less than understanding to deal with that have made me feel like a total loser.
I’ve had lots of tears, lots of emotions, but I’m still alive, even if I feel weak. I’ve had my children to keep me smiling, I’ve had friends that have reached out to make me feel a bit more at ease, and I’ve realized, sometimes you have to take a step back and do the best you can. If others around you are unwilling to accept your best you can provide, it’s on them.
With everything that’s happened, 2014 has got to be better.
I might not feel it, but I’m still swinging.
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Hang in there! I know how you feel…I have had a really rough past couple of months, too. Getting sick and needing emergency surgery, my daughter being diagnosed with some rare freak disease that thankfully, she has recovered from, a shocking and very untimely death in the family, and being “dumped” by the one brand I am most passionate about after working with them for 3 years. Not to mention money worries, etc…I am convinced that 2013 has just been a crappy year and that 2014 HAS to be better! Keeping you in my thoughts, and I hope things get better for you soon!
Hugs Jenna. 2014 has to be better. It can really bring you down, I’ve been there more than I’d like. Just keep your head up! And BTW: You are not a loser, so don’t think that. Thinking about you!
I’m so sorry for your loss, and sorry that life keeps giving you lemons. You’re right – 2014 has GOT to to better.
Sorry to hear your not feeling well. Hang in there and yes 2014 will be better!
keep chugging!! I know how that feels and it’s so tough sometimes to carry on, but I’m SURE your 2014 will be better!
2014 will be better! My motto has always been “it all works out” and it does. Everything will level out for you. Good luck to you!
January is just around the corner. A new month, a new start. Be positive (when you can), and don’t beat yourself up.
Hang and i wish you better 2014.
2013 has been horrible for me. The beginning of the year we found out our pregnancy was going to be a loss because our daughter had Anencephaly. (no brain or back of skull). She was born stillborn in April. My husband broke a hand and foot. Our car caught on fire and more. 2014 has to be better for us both. I don’t know how much more that I can take emotionally. xoxo
Sending much love <3
Sorry for the course of bad luck, sounds like someone needs a vacation.
Try to stay positive, a new year is on it’s way. 2013 wasn’t too kind to me either, looking forward to 2014 🙂