I seriously have sat here wanting to write this for several days now. To me though, the words still just won’t come out right.
In the near future, I will gain labels that despite the many in today’s society, as still there. I will be “divorced”. I will be a “single mother”. Do you still see a stigma in the world? So many single parents are labeled with “welfare cases” and not stable for their children. How is that fair?
Now there is no doubt in my mind, I am doing what is best for my little girls and myself yet, I am still intimidated. I love my girls with all of my heart and make sure they get everything they need and then some. I switched from my four-year degree to a vocational degree because I knew it would allow me to get a career vs. job. No, that’s not the only reason I gave up pursuing my degree at Iowa State folks. When the time is right, I will return to Iowa State. But right now, I know I am working to stand on my own two feet so Kelsie and Aubrey can get what they need.
I’ve gotten several “I’m sorry to hear that” and several “divorce is a sin” comments to which I just want to “Why?”. You are telling me it is a sin for me to be happy? It is a sin to better my children’s environment? That’s not fair at all.
It’s going to be a long road but I can do it.