I just feel discouraged lately. I don’t know what it is but I seriously feel like I’m losing my mind. Soooo many ideas, so many things on my lists to get done and here I am, wondering what the heck to do next. I’ve had conversations with my doctor(s) and seriously, I feel like I’ve been going in and just having a chat session instead of figuring out a good plan. I’ve told all of them that I’m working on losing weight-no real encouragement except a “don’t push yourself too hard”. I love too that “you can take _____ med more than you have been” but yet none of the prescriptions were actually refilled. How’s that for a pain in the ass.
On Friday, I have another appt. with the ENT. I do NOT want to go. Why? Surgery is in discussion. The problem? How on earth am I to have a septoplasty with two small children? Why can’t there be an easier way. “Oh just do it over Christmas” Yeah that sounds like a great idea. My with two black eyes my nose stuffed and attempting to enjoy my children opening presents. Pbbbt. If anyone even pulled out a camera in front of me, they’d be taking pictures of their throats.
I have been working further on my Criminal Justice Degree. As I looked at a degree audit, I realized-I took classes harder than I was required to and-I need to declare an emphasis:Law Enforcement, Corrections, or Electronic Crime. Uhhh, can I just study it all?
I just feel stressed. I am overwhelmed. I am panicky. My nurse today said “You’re looking much more upbeat.” If only I could tell her I was in smart ass mode so I wouldn’t cry.